My world...yesterday

My night is dark and nothing's right
My sky is grey when yours is bright
When I'm alone everyone finds its pair
The dream I had is now just a big nightmare.

Why?I don't know and i can't see an end
Where's happines?Maybe's waiting just across the next bend
I cannot tell, I'm too afraid to see
Maybe I must be alone,maybe I must find me.

In this strange world nothing's what seems to be
I'm too afraid to love,I'm so afraid of me.
My heart can't see the fire,it is not free,
The chains of this shallow world are too heavy for me.

And yet I wonder:who am I?
And why's this world so cruel...and I
I seek one answer,but many come in waves and none are good for me
Because in the depth of my heart I am not free!